I'm EMpty with out you..

November 07, 2007 .. A night that i won't forget and changed my life once again.. You know why? Because it's a special day for someone. A day where she came into this world gracing with her smiles. Oh yea, Belated Happy Birthday.

"My first love is her. She's every breath that I take." I never thought I would think of that phrase again but once again my heart never ceased to amaze me in playing with my emotions again. Even though I said to my friends that I already forgot all about her, I still think of her every night when I see that "Winnie the Pooh" clock near my bed which she gave me as a present. Every time I see the hands of that clock move every minute I think of it that "Every minute that passes by , is every minute i miss her and want her back in my life" as long as that clock ticks my heart will beat to see her smile once more and love her more and more. I know that I'm too late to try again but it's better to try than to lose her completely. I may not be the ideal man for her but she's the ideal woman for her. For some time now I felt there's something missing in my life , a hole in my heart, like a dictionary which has no meaning inside. Without her I'm nothing.......and i'll do everything to let her know that I still have feelings for her, a feeling which never left my heart.

As a start to show her how I really want her back in my life.. On her special day.. I gave a rose which has not opened yet. That unopened rose means that when the time that the rose has opened I hope your heart has opened to love me too. As hours passed by I tried to draw her face so that even though I won't able to see her for a long time I still have that drawing of her face as a memory. It took me hours just to draw it and try to perfected it but I guess it was a failure.

I'm thinking of her right now as I make this post. She's everything to me, she's my life.. I'm Crazy for this girl. and I hope she knows it by now.