Regrets

This story strucked me.... I just want to post this so that you could also read it...

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called"best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.


Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.
I Love You

Broken Pieces

Have you ever experienced the things I posted last time? Having a crush on someone and eventually falling in love with her inch by inch every day..

Well If you did, you could feel the pain I gone through when I learned something about "Her"...
Last week I thought I already found the person who could make my life worthwhile and comfort me when I'm in stress..But I guess..I was wrong again..

I found out that she had a boyfriend..well, that's not new for me..but I just want to let out my feelings through this blog..

After a while.... I felt okay about that... I said to myself maybe she's not the one for me..I guess..but we shall never know..because only time will tell right?

After I thought I was ok with that... I saw something yesterday after my class.. I saw her bf... Something went inside my head... I don't know what I felt that time.. but I do know it feels like hell..

I guess this is enough for now... I can't think properly..

De Luckiest Thing Happened

It's been quite a while since I last posted and I had a crush on some one..hehe
My crush is from my class..hehe can't say her name or in what class because she might read this..heheh
All I could say is that she's really pretty and has a cute voice..Every day I see her just makes me fall in love a lot faster.. but I guess I could never have her (as usual).. I'm returning to my old self again.. having a crush and being afraid of talking to her.. but last week was different.. I had the courage to talk to her not only as a classmate but also as a friend.. That's the only time I really felt happiness inside me since 3rd term of my frosh days...

There are many ways to describe her even though I only knew her for a short time.. To describe her physically is she's really cute especially when she doesn't tie her hair.. Her eyes are like the pearls that shines when struck by sunlight.. Her smooth skin (I'm not sure cause i haven't touched her) is like a strand of silk... Now you know why I have on her..

Her personality is no different from mine.. She's a Happy-go-Lucky girl.. She's always smiling too..Like she has no problem.. Well I guess this is all I could say about her for the mean time.....

Now, the only thing I could say that she's only a star for me.. A star which I would always try to reach just to be happy.. but it's just a dream right? but could you blame me for trying?